Along Came a Spider

So I was fresh off a four and half year bid, and by bid I mean relationship. The funny thing is I hadn’t even realized I was in a relationship until it was over. It was an on again off again situation that left me a lot of freedom and uncertainties and him with insecurities and trust issues. The first couple of months I was in denial, like he aint going nowhere. The three or four months following I was in a complete state of desperation and shock. Now this was 4 ½ years of DYS-FUNK-SHUN! Toxic and unhealthy however, he was great to my son, so I was hard pressed to get back to chaos, when you live in chaos for so long it starts to become normal. But, he was done and I was suddenly single and dead set against getting serious again because part of me still held out hope for Mr. Dysfunctional but then Along Came a Spider. He used all eight legs to wrap around me and string me up in his web of deceit. I was bringing him to church amen, thanksgiving dinner, I’d exposed my personal family life and that is a big deal for me.

Now hind sight being 20/20 I realize I was so high up off the floor on the rebound I failed to see the game going on around me. He had been up and down the court hitting jump (offs) shots, smashing lay-ups, and knocking down free throws…pun, pun, and pun intended. So the Spiders way of being “up front”. (Clearing my throat) HIM: Been single about 8 months (hey same as me) the break up was amicable, she relocated to her home state, and we remain friendly. Ok I have no problem with that (what’s that in my face? oh just a red flag) although a small part of me has a problem with that because when you break-up and leave windows cracked there is always the possibility of a future drive by. But I tarry on. Another facet has been revealed, he’s an ex-drug addict (all the drugs anything he could get his hands on he said) and as we sat there sipping apple ciroc, he proclaims he’s clean and sober. That red flag has now hit me in the back of my mofo head like girl you know better. But people recover and live healthy lives, everyone deserves a chance to not be judged by their past mistakes. So I tarry on because now at this point in the game he has professed his love (all of 3 ½ months later) He then divulges that the ex will be coming back in to town to take care of some legal business (excuse me red flag, would you mind not waving so blatantly in my face I’m trying to develop a relationship here.) So I ask will you be seeing her, is she staying with you, like what’s up? HIM: Oh no, she won’t be staying with me, in fact I can stay with you if that’ll make you feel better and I spend all my time with you anyway so that won’t change.

No that’s not necessary; as long as her visit doesn’t disrupt our flow I’m good. Fast forward six weeks, and she needs a ride from airport. What does that have to do with you? Turns out…the legal issues that she needs to take care of, he was involved in. So because he is working a stable job and she’s a first time offender (wait and you’re not? But I don’t ask) she agreed to take full responsibility as long as he agreed to be there for her if she needed him. (and you’re going to let her?) I later found out through my own investigation being there for her included paying her cell phone bill (as she and her son was already on his plan) being on his medical/dental insurance (he gets it for free) and she still has a key to his place (but what does it matter she lives out of state) OK let me hurry up, there’s a concert coming up and I say I want to go can you get some tickets he says he’ll let me know. EXCUSE ME? Let me know what? A few days later he advises me the same day I want to go to the concert is the same day she’s flying in and not only is he picking her up from the airport, she’ll be staying with him. I can’t see shit but red and it’s more than flags. I’m not even going to get in to how he tried to convince me this wasn’t a big deal, the real issue here is I was negotiating my feelings and trying to convince myself this was ok. And no judgments, it may be ok for some but it aint ok for she, her me. But it took a minute and several conversations with my girl for that to resonate. Now I have to recover from a rebound situation that I didn’t even want to be in. I’m all tangled up in this web and I have a big ol’ attitude. He called me constantly trying to convince me this meant nothing and things don’t have to change. I ignored him, blocked his number, and he showed up at my house talking about he needs to know something, he needs closure. So I closed the door in his face. At the end of the day when you Bout That Single Life you can’t blame the Spider for spinning the web, it’s their job.

16 thoughts on “Along Came a Spider”

  1. Love it!! Can’t wait to read what happens next!! I’ve learned a long time ago to pay attention to the signs that’s right smack in your face✌🏾

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  2. Sounds like all the makings of a good book. I’d like to read more. That spider would have been smashed with my broom. I’m scared if spiders.

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